Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Almost Halfway....to WHERE?!

I am on day 10 of the Daniel fast, which lasts 21 days.  So, that means halfway done, but what is "done"?  I believe this time of fasting is changing my life and my habits, which is a good thing.  I find that I like eating this way, even while fighting off urges and temptations to cheat. 

I have also very much noticed a spiritual component.  I am being fought.  Fiercely.  I have a strong sense of oppression.  The powers of evil do not want this fast.  I am entirely thankful for that spiritual sensitivity, as it keeps me on my knees.  I bring these feelings of oppression to God, and He is good!  In an ironic way it is good to know that the forces of evil are fighting.  If this was futile that wouldn't be the case.  A strong battle gives me a sense that victory will be frightening to those against whom I am fighting.

Another distinct revelation I have had is how very little self worth I have.  I know my strengths, I have a certain confidence, and some leadership abilities, but doggone it, I don't feel worthy.  I really believe this sense of self worth has greatly reduced the effectiveness of my prayer as it has prohibited me from asking boldly.  I am not even going to try to convince anyone that it is miraculously cured, but I will say that awareness is the first step, and the second is bringing it to God, which I am doing regularly.

Trust in the LORD and do good.
      Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
 Take delight in the LORD,
      and he will give you your heart’s desires.  Commit everything you do to the LORD.
      Trust him, and he will help you.
 He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn,
      and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
 Be still in the presence of the LORD,
      and wait patiently for him to act.

Psalm 37:3-7


  1. Thank you thank you thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful child of God. LYF- Liv

  2. God show lee she is perfect
    in your sight. Keep giving her the strengh she needs.